Just Down

I'm down...
down for what?

My bf said that I not trust him
Keep think have many girl around him
will steal him away from me

I was always think too much
afraid that a lot of bad girl will steal him away from me

I know I always keep to ask him who beside you, who stay with you
I know he dislike
even myself
I know he feel I was very very annoying...

He want me to trust him
to not to worry or think too much

I wish I can do it
but I know I can't

Cuz I was very afraid
I know I can't do it....
But I have to do so

I know it is a better way to keep a relationship stay longer
But I know I will fail...
fail to do so...

So I have to force myself to not ask more to not care more
To not Worry it...

It is very suffer to do so...
But I must Force myself to do so

I know started I will very suffer to not ask more to not care
but it is a period...
when it is pass all will be fine

I have to believe I can do so

I just can tell myself,
Even as more as the girl beside you, wanna close with you
I also don't care,
they died is their problem
non of my business

I don't know why,
I feel Like girl who want close with my bf
who want to know him all is evil
all is vixen

I know I'm Weird,
I know I'm very terrible
I know I was Lost control
because I was saying something very terrible and bad word

I'm sorry
I just Have to control myself more.
Just that

I was downing sometime
because he asking me to do something that I can't do it well

Just don't want to disappointed anyone even myself

Yeah, I just can force myself to do anything that I have to I should to do so

I'm just so suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!