Insomnia

This Night, I'm fall in the situation of Insomnia
I'm Don't know why


it is keep non stop...
like can feel that I'm lose something right now.


I know... everything happened it made by my own.


in he mind, I'm Just a person who keep finding something to argue even it is nothing can argue


am I just a person like that?
I feel sad, i'm just a person of non sense in he mind.


maybe I'm really just a person who are not important for him anymore.
a person cannot to treat nice, cannot to care even put in the heart.
a person who just will hurt him.
a person who cannot to treasure anymore


I keep crying deep in my heart
I keep crying in the mid night
even sleep also will suddenly awake.


I hate myself...why am I like that.
I hate myself...
why am I hurt u by this way?
why can't everything just treat it normal?
why I can't?


too care? too scare?think too much?


I know...sadness back to me again
and
I'm the one who inhibit happiness come to my side.


How can I sleep well?
I keep to blame myself like this
I keep to hurt myself...
I keep to sad just because I'm blame myself...


maybe I really have to let all the "mind" go