难过的说

今天本来约好了一位很久不见的好好好朋友

可是正当我准备出门时

她CALL我,说她来不及回KELANAＪＡＹＡ［ＰＪ］

好难过，因为我们又见不到了

还要等到ＣＮＹ

我还以为可以见到她了

我好想念你哦ＬＩＬＩＡＮ

好想见到你时给你一个很大很大的拥抱哦

可惜要等到ＣＮＹ了

不用紧啦，等你是值得的

回到原点

认识我的人很多,但真正了解我的人并不多

真正知道我的过去的也不多

曾经的我,发生了我一辈子也不可能忘记的事情

那件事情让我不再珍惜自己

甚至放弃自己,自我堕落

我那时不再珍惜自己,也放弃自己到自残

我用了很多年才慢慢的找回本来的我

也改掉了自残的习惯...但...

在我找回自己的时候,天总在考验我,让我又再发生让我遇到放弃自己的事情

很多人一定会说,是我自己在为自己找理由

或许是吧...

我,一直都在重复的走回同样的经历...

每次都遇到一样的情况,

我真的很想就这样再放弃自己多一次

但,我的朋友告诉我,不值得

是我的朋友让我明白,我在开始的时候就做错了

也是我的朋友让我清醒,我不该再这样了

所以这次,我选择再重来

很多事情老是再重演,就好象回到原点

或许,我一直都在起跑原地踏步

从来都没有离开过原点

这次,我彻底的清醒,彻底的心碎

但也因为这一次,我彻底的找回自我,

我该谢谢他,若不是因为他,我不会那么的清醒

更不可能找到我的方向和问题

谢谢你,虽然你让我彻底的心碎

这一次,我会好好的过活,不再过回那不糠的生活,不糠的自己

回到原点再出发...重新开始

爱情累人?

常常都听别人诉说他们伤心的爱情,问题

而我就是那个常为他们解决的顾问

爱情,真的没有一心一意吗?

爱情,非要有一个是花心吗?

甚至到有人认为是骗人的...

先说分手的

就一定是不爱了吗?

先说分手就一定是不对和不爱了吗?

我觉得好累,好想哭...

我的前任男友,他老是觉得我骗他,说我怎么能那么容易就放下?

我觉得好难过,好难过那样的被误会,

我不知道为什么我很在乎他怎么想我

或许他是唯一那一个说我是个不好的女孩,那样想我的人,就只有他

我先说分手,可以很快放下,不是我不爱了,只是我选择了另个方法去爱

其实在我说分手前,就准备好了

所以我可以没事的很快

对不起,我选择了保护自己

爱情,真的是自私的,

爱情,很虚幻

从前,我一直都是哪个被伤害的

现在,情况既然相反了

原来,先说分手的要面对的是被说分手的永远也不会知道不会明白的

在 爱情 里,我学会保护自己

爱情太累人了,爱情里是有循环的

曾经,你怎么对人,现在别人就怎么对回你

相信我,一定要好好的爱现在你的那另一伴

真心对待才能得到真心的礼物

不要埋怨,不要老是怪他/她,更别老是要求他/她变成你的理想

因为你爱的他/她,是本来的他/她,那最真最原始的他/她

世上没有完美,但一定有个属于你的他/她会陪伴你

还没遇到不是你没有更不是爱情在骗人,

只是你还没遇到属于你的他/她,

有的人要分分和和好多次才能遇到呢,

那样多累人. 就如我...我觉得好累了,累的不是还没遇到而是要面对

分手了,更别埋怨,说爱情骗人,说他/她不对

你应该感到庆幸,因为那不是属于你的他/她

而且,你也学会多一样,从中成长多一点点,

这里的不完美,难过,只是在帮你变的更好在你还没遇到属于你的他/她

the five month love end

五个月了,但我选择了分开,
其实我很开心与你一起
但最近太多事情发生
我没办法兼顾你,我的学业和我的练习
结果我选择放弃你,
其实我不要放弃任何一个但我再也给不到你安全感了
你也希望我们能见面可是我却希望能有多点的空间
我开始觉得很有压力,或许我知道我给不到你要的
所以我选择分开
可是我却很难过,我哭了
当我一上LRT到KTm
我就一直的哭,中间我也下了一次车
到回到家,我在房间里再哭
before i slp, i also cry
even juz awake tis morning i also cry
now i writing also cry
my heart so pain
wil i be fine soon?
mayb i wil...
but i dun think so

the 1st dream come true

today is a happy day

he n me go out to watch movie and we walk around too

tis is the 1st date we hv

i'm so happy it is because he make my dream come true

i thought he wont go out with me,

he wont have a date with me

he oledi make my 1st dream come true

although we don't have hold hand while we walk together

but it oledi very sweet for me

we sit together to watch movie

we having lunch aft watch movie

we walk around together

we eat ice-cream together too

thanks god, you give me a beauty dream that i wish to have

thanks dar, you make my dream come true

thanks dar, you give me a very sweet dream

now i waiting for pulau ketam dream

tis will be our second sweet dream

i really try my best to collect all the sweet dream that we can have

i wish i can collect as much as i can before you leave me

before you oversea

maybe before we break up

i treat all of tis is a dream

i treat all the time we have is gold

haha...i so silly?

but i really wan collect our dream, collect our memory

hope you can help me, give me the chance to collect

thanks god

just a illustrate

love, so weak

love, so illustrate

today i view my frenz lit sis blog

and i reliease, her bf betray her

she n her bf stay together oledi 1 yr more

but how cum

how come a stable love can happened tis kind of thing

guy, always just wan to chase a better and better gal

but not the heart?

how come guy always so greedy?

did them reliase, people always just can have one but no more than one

even love also same

greedy just will let you lost all the thing you have

mayb guy always is childish and greedy

never learn to treasure and mature in love

aiksss, will my ''him'' just love me?

but i noe, in one day

he will leave me and love other gal

and not love me anymore

ya, people, always just love and like new thing, new people and pretty people

they never feel enuff for now also never treasure what they have

but always regret about what they do and say aft tat

did you know it is too late, no matter how many time u feel regret, it cant be back and it wont be back

the sadness deep inside my heart

no matter still left how many day, how many month

that we stil can stay together, i will treasure it and enjoy the time,day with you.

i just want to have a sweet memory with you

yup, u will oversea and wont be back, i know it

so i treasure every minit everytime and everyday

wish you also the same

i just want you know that i love you

i really don't want we break in one day

i really hope we can stay together until we old

but i know it mayb just can be a dream

i really don't want to find other guy to replace you inside my heart

really hope you are the only one

i sad when you told me, if one day really break, you want to know that i can get a new bf or a

good guy to take care me than you will happy much

you know, i sad when hear it

like you don't want me, don't love me anymore

and want me don't love you and choose other guy

that really sad

because cannot stay together with the one we love and see he/she with other people having the

happiness but the people besides he/she not ourselve anymore

i dont know how to tell you or let you understand

now, i just want you

now i just want to love you

i know it clear that no one can replace you inside my heart

so i never say i love you

because i scare when you hear it you will run away

i scare when i say it, will scare you and will lost you

and the word '' i love you '' really hard to say out

not because of i don't love you

just i really love you

but i promise you, from now on

i will smile, i will not think about sadness again

just because don't want make you sad

and i also want to leave the sweet and nice memory to you before you oversea before you leave

me...

keep to smile ^^

我们都清楚

我们都知道,到最后我们会分开,
我们现在只是努力的为对方留下最美好的回忆
让对方都记得都没遗憾.

是我太傻了,是我太天真.
我怎么那么的天真那么的傻,
我怎么认真了起来

怎么突然间,你变得不难过不在乎了呢?
是我的错觉吗?

我怎么觉得现在是我太难过而你一点也没事那样呢?
我想是我突然认真了吧...

我是否该停止这伤心的感觉了呢?
因为我都知道,我们会分开,会分手的
或许,我真的该停止这伤心的感觉,
努力的为他留下美好的回忆...

我只想他能永远的记着我
记得我们曾经的回忆曾经的快乐
那就足够了
真的就足够了

learning during holiday

long time din write blog at here

and now i write back this blog and using back english

today is the second day for my holiday

i stil hv 3 week go on for my holiday

juz finish my 4 sem final...

but i feel a bit sad because i found that i will be resit my this sem paper

i hope i can past all paper

and now i wanted to work hard to improve my english writing and speaking

so i promise myself, i will start to read, and do lot of partice to improve my english language

lotus, gambate !! ^^

想念

不知道，这一刻我是怎么了，我突然很想念你

想念你的拥抱，想念你的吻

好希望这一刻，你在我身边， 抱着我

就如你常常那样的抱着我，

我觉得好温暖，好有安全感

就如你是只属于我，我多希望那一刻可以停下

真的希望，你能那样的爱我， 不会停下，

我喜欢你那样的爱我，喜欢你那样的呵护我，保护我

想念你的心，在这一刻变得好强哦。。。

呵呵。。。或许是因为今天的天气特别的冷吧

所以，我特别的想念你。。。

如果那是注定

如果，注定我这一生会拥有幸福，拥有你， 那我一定会耐心的等待，好好的握紧你。

如果，注定我会失去你，我会就这样让你走，因为我不想成为碍你的那个人。

如果，那是不能改变的事实，我会努力的把握现在。

如果，留住你是件悲伤的决定，那我会只当你的朋友，一个普通的朋友。

如果，我不能满足你，让你只爱我，我会选择让你寻找你的幸福。

如果，你要的不是我，为什么还要留我在你身边？ 是因为你爱我，还是你需要我？

真的有点觉得自己好傻，其实我不该那么忠心的爱你，
因为，你心里一直都在寻找比我更好的更漂亮的女孩
可是，为什么我明知道你是这样却还要待在你身边呢？

如果，你一直都在寻找比我更好更漂亮的女孩，那我会在你还没找到之前，留下最美好的 回忆，争取那还能与你一起的机会与时间

如果的如果，也只是不要让自己后悔与遗憾。

Suck, I Drink medicine until suck

the 1st time i drink medicine wil feel to slp much
today i feel not well so go to farmasi buy medicine eat
who noe, aft i drink it, i straight to slp
while i awake, i feel myself like wan to ''fly''
dam, reli is a suck suck day for me
hw come i can so worst like tat
add on, i have class aft tat time i drink medicine
i wish i wont not sick again
i hate sick bcuz i hate medicine T.T
pls la, keep me away...dun come to find me again T.T

[[suck suck day]]

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mY Blog

the 1st time that I use English to write blog
so come to here to say '' I very happy that I have my blog Here''

so now start to write my 1st blog here ^^

today, I feel very sorry to the people that I like
because I make him get scold by he mother
really feel sorry much
other than this word I really dunno what still can I say

I feel so bad n worst on myself
since yesterday until today,
I make the people I like having worst situation
I feel that I'm bad gal and not good enough

yesterday I dun have tell him clearly about the time will have many people wait at ktm station so than I make him go back late
I make him angry and no mood
the 1st time I make him like that

today, is the 1st time I make him get scold by he mother

aikss I feel so bad now....

but life still have to go on
I still have to face it
and workhard for my assignment
no matter what mood I have now.

gambate!!!

I guess I have to stop writing at here.

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