Insomnia

This Night, I'm fall in the situation of Insomnia
I'm Don't know why


it is keep non stop...
like can feel that I'm lose something right now.


I know... everything happened it made by my own.


in he mind, I'm Just a person who keep finding something to argue even it is nothing can argue


am I just a person like that?
I feel sad, i'm just a person of non sense in he mind.


maybe I'm really just a person who are not important for him anymore.
a person cannot to treat nice, cannot to care even put in the heart.
a person who just will hurt him.
a person who cannot to treasure anymore


I keep crying deep in my heart
I keep crying in the mid night
even sleep also will suddenly awake.


I hate myself...why am I like that.
I hate myself...
why am I hurt u by this way?
why can't everything just treat it normal?
why I can't?


too care? too scare?think too much?


I know...sadness back to me again
and
I'm the one who inhibit happiness come to my side.


How can I sleep well?
I keep to blame myself like this
I keep to hurt myself...
I keep to sad just because I'm blame myself...


maybe I really have to let all the "mind" go

Is ok, just let it go... all will be alright...

I don't know how to describe my feeling now.

just...many matter been happened recently.

is it all is my fault?

I'm so sorry...that I broken all your plan

I really so naive?

am I?

I have think over and over again...

why am I can't let it go?

why am I keep want people to follow what I'm think and require.

it is human not a plant or animals.

even animals, also have the right to choose.

I should not to lock all of your mind and it is just only have my mine.

I know...I'm very terrible.

Deep in my heart...I was very sad...

Why am I will be like that...

I hate myself to be like that.

I hate myself to hurt you.

I'm So sorry...

deep in my mind,

I know...what should I do.

Just let it go.

is ok.

I know all will be alright.

everything will be fine.

it is just need some time.

Non one can forget what have happened.

I know I can't change that have happened

Only one thing I can do.

Do Not make the same mistake again.

Not need to do any explain

Not need to trying change myself

Not need to do something different

Only Myself know than is enough

Only myself understand than is enough

Trust deep inside my heart it is enough

I will always remember.

Past is Past, Do Not mention it back

Do Not keep it

I'm Face to mine future not past.

so let it go.

all will be alright.