明智的选择

信任是如此的重要
因为信任所以感情才能维持的长久
因为信任所以即使对方多问，另一方会自然的把所有的一切都告诉

从中，我发现，少问多听是让另一方觉得舒服的
而且这也意味着你是信任他/她
所以即使你不问，他/她依然什么都会自动地告诉你

原来明智的选择是不要让对方觉得你不信任他/她
而且要全力的支持，相信，和不要想太多。

让自己POSITIVE，想的开点，
用这乐观的态度去看待每一件事，
不去怀疑，信任自己当初的选择，
自己也会活得开心
对方也不会有压力而且也会开心。

爱情本来就是该这样，不是吗？

试问，当你爱上一个你从没见过面的人，
你和对方就只是书信来往，
但，你对他写给你的一切深信不疑，
而且都用很乐观的态度去看待那段感情
从不怀疑。

那为什么当两人真正走在一起时，
却不能再那样了呢？
是自卑？环境的影响？还是突然发觉太多的比较了呢？

为何我们就不能单纯的信任对方和自己的选择呢？

原来，累是大过一切的

一句我累了，就可以不见面
一句我累了，就可以拒绝做爱
一句我累了，就可以不爱了

曾经，他说：“他不懂爱，所以说远不来找你”
曾经，我问：“你累了，会不会不再像以前那样的爱我，不再来找我无论多远多累”？
曾经，他说：“无论多累多远，我还是会像以往一样，永远不变”

但是，他不知道，他开始做工那刻起，
已经在变了。

他，累了，说明天我才来找你。
当你在闹或不开心，
他会说：“你可以体谅我吗？难道你要我出车祸吗”？

这一刻，他嫌你不够成熟，嫌你不体谅，嫌你任性。
他说：“你几时才能成熟点，体谅我，不要再那么的任性？”

那一刻，她受伤了。

她明白，已经不一样了。
没有任性，幼稚和不体谅的理由了。
她明白，每个男人都要求一样的。

是她要她相信他是不一样的
可是那一刻，他说了每个男人都对她说一样的对白。
她的眼泪掉下了。

原来，男人梦寐以求的不是他曾经说喜欢的她。

一切回到现实。
好听的话总会有天被现实盖过

再美的包装也只是外表而已。

Post

I have Few Post wana to post up...
some is regarding my working life
attach with pic during the day I went to melaka and the premier movie day ^^

besides I have some post to post up is regarding the day went out with my bro,his gf and my bf ^^

really lot pic wana to post up,
but I'm Busy recently...

So please to wait for my post.

Will be post up soon~~

Besides, 冬至节快乐,Everyone！！
Must stay with family and Happy together !!

Happy Winter Solstice Festival! !

为什么人总在分开后，失去后才发觉他的重要。。。才后悔。。。

是因为从没真心爱过？
还是因为不懂得珍惜和怎样去爱人？
还是。。。拥有了太多却不知足。。。还埋怨，不满足呢？

我。。。还是我吗？
我承认，我不懂得怎么去爱人
自私的只顾自己的感觉，却从没真正的考虑他人的感受。。。

原来。。。我一直是那个伤害自己的那个人。。。

看到某人的blog,才发觉。。。
原来是我从没真正的感觉别人给我的爱

我从没真正的去接受别人给的爱和关心。。。
但却一面要别人给我100%的爱。。。
我才是哪个应该付出真心的人。。。

我。。。真的懂得什么叫爱吗？
好深奥。。。

我很努力的。。。改变。。。
因为，我不想失去现在拥有的。。。
包括他 MR G。。。

学会了什么叫珍惜
什么叫满足。。。
什么叫不要埋怨。。。

用心去感觉而非肉眼和听觉。。。

Job was so Tire

What kind of job I work now?
It is very taught, stress, unhappy, tire and even after work still need to work at home.
other than this, even public holiday, I still need to work

No rest time, No break time
In office, during my lunch time I also need to work
non break~~

Damm tire
I wana to quit this job
But I have to work until Next year april
I have to be Stay stronger

This kind of unstable job
no break, no lunch , no freetime for myself even no rest time

How to say as stable job?
OMG~~ how could them say it is a better and stable job?

Swt... TIRE

星期五的夜晚

这个夜晚我过得怎么样呢？

我在家，
做什么？
哈哈，看戏。。。上网。。。我怎么那么无聊？
其实，今晚过得最有意义的是和我的G一起。。。

看了好几个人的blog和facebook,
好羡慕他人好美和美美的衣服，
好羡慕他人可以到处traveling,
好羡慕他人可以出国生活，
好羡慕他人可以和一帮朋友出去玩和聚会
好羡慕他人可以和爱的人一起生活和travel

几时，我才能过得那么的自在自由呢？

钱，时机，机会，时间
都不是说要得到就能得到的。。。

真的需要把握
更需要学会满足

因为我的不满足
因为我的要求多多
导致我一直都在追求
导致我一直都觉得累和好像一直抵达不到我的目的地

对的，不懂得满足，
我又怎能察觉到其实我已得到了很多呢？

星期五的夜晚让我开始反省自己。。。

越来越多隐瞒？
越来越多不耐烦？

是我的问题？
他的问题？
我们的问题？
还是他/她的问题？

多了威胁的人出现了，
我感觉到。。。

是一个非常威胁到我们之间
甚至导致我们。。。分开。。。的一个人

我真的感觉到。。。

很不安。。。

那个人是我吗？
越来越不安了。。。

到底怎么了?
我是否疯了?
越来越敏感了...

或许当他要求自由,不一样的对待方法,
让我不适从...
或许...我不能接受为什么他要有这样的要求

可能怀疑有别人的出现
可能他已经像我妈说的那样了...

再多的怀疑,可能,和不能接受或不适从
只是给自己不要接受现实的借口,
不是吗?

爱情,本来就该有对方该有的自由,朋友和生活

是我自己把自己绑在他的世界里
更渴望他也能和我一样
但,我错了.

他要的不是这样
对的,男人要的是空间.
自己的私人空间.
自己的私人自由.

我太肤浅了
我太霸道了
我太自以为是了
我太疑心重 了

我们都该回到各自的中心点
我的中心点

原来,我更本不懂得怎么去爱一个人
更不懂得怎么维持一段感情
只会一面的付出和渴望得到同样的回报和对待

我,连小孩都不如...

我失去了那单纯的去爱一个人的感觉
忘了那单纯的去爱一个人是什么感觉了
是自己的多疑让自己迷失了吗?

我是否该重新来过?
还是检讨现在,找出根源
去把现在维持的更好呢?

Steamboat day

Our Steamboat Day !!
It is our Pre-Birthday Party
With my Parent ^^
and it is our table number 33

Look Our Food...
Told you, this look like so much but act quite less nia >.<

Ooh~~ my dear, Look so Lengzai anytime anywhere
Love him so much~~

Yoyoyoyo, finally can eat after waiting quite long a while
it is nice?

why just this kind of food?
bcuz...

aiya, forget it,
just it and drink ^^

hehe my sis and my dad~~
my dad look old recently~~
and this is the 1st time he ask to eat steamboat after few year ago we have our last steamboat with our relative

ya, this is my mum~~ look pretty and young, rite?
hehe

our steamboat day is a very happy day ^^
Family day is the most lovely day in my life ^^

空了

黑暗的世界，你看到了什么？
眼泪？滴血的心？
被剑刺伤的心？

曾经，那里是我到过的世界
我在那。。。待了一小段的时间

它不长但也不短
它让我一直的原地踏步
我走不出去
因为我看不到我前方的路在那里
没有路灯，只有一直在下雨的天空

暗暗的，恢恢的
看不清，只是一路的走，就一路的跌倒。

而我既然遇到了幸运。。。

有双手在我面前。。。
我看的不清楚那是不是我所看到的

但在我抬头望时，我看到了他
他对我微笑。。。

似乎告诉我，来不要怕，
让我来带你离开这黑暗的世界
跟随我，让我带你去一个色彩的世界
那里曾经也是你的世界
你忘了吗？

他，让我有无比的安全感
他，让我鼓起了勇气牵着他的手

我是怎么了？
那里来的勇气，一点也不怀疑，
就这样，牵着他的手，
一路的走着
我是无比的相信他

但，在我看到那光芒时
我却害怕了，

我害怕什么？

在这一刻，我很用力地
要甩开他的手，努力的要逃跑

我就是那么的没用。。。
只会逃避。。。

在我决定要放弃走出黑暗的世界时
他，既然不放弃我
还努力的说服我，
要我不要怕，即使我多么的挣扎
他依然不觉得累

终于，我选择了跟随他，
鼓起我的勇气，走出这黑暗的世界

我不知道，我将会面对什么
但，选择了相信我的选择
因为，他让我相信
因为，他告诉我幸福在这里

他，让我看到了我一直都不相信的
就是，一个人，一颗心，永远只爱着一个人，不会累
无论我多反抗，我多坏脾气，
他对我是不离不弃
依然那么的疼爱我

是的，
逃避，我永远都不会好起来也回不去那色彩的世界
只有面对，我才能真正的重新开始
做回我自己。

所以，我空了
要再重新的把我遇到的一切
一粒一粒的放进我的记忆瓶里

他，会一路陪伴我的，
我相信

没有主题

雨天，好冷
我的心也犹如雨天一样，
冷。。。

都空了。。。
一切都空了。。。

一切归回了。。。

没有少些什么

对的，受伤而已
没什么少的
面对它，逃避并不会让我好起来
面对它，它并不会刺伤我
我会变得更坚强

是的。。。
再见过去。。。

放手让你走
从此，你是我的回忆。。。
一段，我想起了也不会再哭泣
一段，我永远也不会因为你而再害怕了

我的现在

我真心的问自己。。。
我是真的爱你吗？

我的答案是。。。比爱还要更多。。。
我的生活里，你已是我的家人
没有人可以取代。。。

我在乎你

Happy Birthday to my dad!!
he birthday on Nov 19 !!

Now only I knew is he birthday

but anyway, Happy birthday dad
I voice it out by here by my heart

the day

This day, We go to garden, walk walk and play play
since the started we stay together we have go to menjalara garden
now is the 2nd time we go to menjalara garden

but different is, we are so excited
why?
because we keep take picture

since when we fall in love taking pic for each other or both of us?

lolx...dunno

but the most excited is.....

I learn back drive car
kekekeke

why need to learn car?
because of my career need it
and it is convenience to me, to my parent, to my bf and my boss too

this is not the 1st time i start to learn
but it is the 1st time that I drive untill I wish to Keep Continue to drive and learn
learn until I can drive it well

I told myself,
I will DO it better and best at next time

是做不到还是不愿意？

我常常都说，我做不到，我真的做不到。
但，我是真的做不到吗？

其实，没有做不到的，只有不愿意做和不要去做。。。

对的，一向来是我不愿意去相信。。。
是害怕？
害怕什么呢？

我不知道，
既然不知道，那为什么要害怕些都不知道会不会发生的呢？

对的，我该一切顺其自然的心态去看待。。。

未知数的不该提早过分担心。。。
不然，不会发生的最后成真。。。

我该接受，我该相信的。。。

无聊的我

我很无聊。。。
所以，开了G 的 facebook and msn acc

然后，无聊到开blog去看他blog的朋友的post
我看到很多都是女生
然后，很多都好像是为情而伤/苦恼

不知道我怎么了
仿佛看到那个从前伤心的我
她们写的。。。
我好像都这么想过

曾经的我
是多么envy那些拥有幸福快乐的爱情
和他们脸上那个幸福的笑容

当时的我曾这么的问过自己
我会像他们一样吗？
我会遇到一位真正爱我的人吗？
我会拥有幸福的爱情，和笑得像他们一样的幸福吗？

当时，我觉得那是不可能发生在我身上的
但，现在，它成真了
它的确发生在我身上。。。

原来。不是我没遇到
那只是我们的缘分还没到

现在，天使和上帝都在保护我
他们从没遗弃我
他们一直的都在眷顾我，保护我，照顾我

谢谢上帝，Amen
(我的G常都会说的话）

Just Down

I'm down...
down for what?

My bf said that I not trust him
Keep think have many girl around him
will steal him away from me

I was always think too much
afraid that a lot of bad girl will steal him away from me

I know I always keep to ask him who beside you, who stay with you
I know he dislike
even myself
I know he feel I was very very annoying...

He want me to trust him
to not to worry or think too much

I wish I can do it
but I know I can't

Cuz I was very afraid
I know I can't do it....
But I have to do so

I know it is a better way to keep a relationship stay longer
But I know I will fail...
fail to do so...

So I have to force myself to not ask more to not care more
To not Worry it...

It is very suffer to do so...
But I must Force myself to do so

I know started I will very suffer to not ask more to not care
but it is a period...
when it is pass all will be fine

I have to believe I can do so

I just can tell myself,
Even as more as the girl beside you, wanna close with you
I also don't care,
they died is their problem
non of my business

I don't know why,
I feel Like girl who want close with my bf
who want to know him all is evil
all is vixen

I know I'm Weird,
I know I'm very terrible
I know I was Lost control
because I was saying something very terrible and bad word

I'm sorry
I just Have to control myself more.
Just that

I was downing sometime
because he asking me to do something that I can't do it well

Just don't want to disappointed anyone even myself

Yeah, I just can force myself to do anything that I have to I should to do so

I'm just so suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

More Picture to Upload - As My promise

As What I have Promise~~
Here is my photoshooting day Picture
Cuz too many so I pick some really look nicer to uplaod here
and share with you all
Picture at below is my personal Picture
it is just taking alone for me ^^
So ENJOY~~








Of course, other than my personal Picture
still have picture that taking for 3 person
it is hard to take it but the result is quite ok
so picture at below is sharing with you all
Enjoy it~~

Amilk,Jessica and Me(lotus)

Picture at below,
It is a picture that taking for me and amilk only
it is a taking as studio picture and with COOL style



Hope You all enjoy it and like it
and below is the last picture to share with you all


I quite Like this picture in personally
because it seem so happy
So Stay happy as the picture
in your life ^^

Studio Photo

Who is this gal?
She is Lotus!!
Me!! haha

Did I be a Model Already?
Of course~~~
Not...

I Just take a Photoshooting Again
in studio??
of course~~
Not!!

Than Where I take?
hehe , it is a secret~~
anyway...I Love the photoshooting in this time

Because I already Can Do it well than 1st time
and the out come in this picture was so Pretty

The picture at below
Look Like Magazine Cover Page Feel
I Love the picture Much



This Two Picture is My favourite now
because ~~
I Havent get the rest of picture yet

so I'm Be patient to wait for it ^^

Another day of Photoshooting with Amlik and Jess

It is a relax day
went out to shopping?
not!! we are went out for a photoshooting


it is not easy to do 3 person photoshoot
but the picture have show it nicer
and with a story life...

ok, let's show you a few picture
it is a little part in the photoshoot







Still have more...but it is a little bit I get From My Photographer ^6^
so Just Show You this little bit
anyway wait I get all I will Show up More at here again ^^

我小孩子

一点小事都看不开
小小事就闹
小小事就哭
小小事就生气

每次只会钻牛角尖
别人给意见，我都不接受
我都推翻

我，幼子，
想法，态度都一样。。。

小孩子
长不大。。。

我越来越不想这样
我开始想封闭自己

我选择少说，少给意见
少发表。。。
多听，多接受。。。

这是全新的我。

我得到了我要的薪水
我下一步是帮牙
然后。。。就是upgrade自己
车，我知道我一定不会得到了

我家人不打算出车给我。。。

昨天。。。我很难过
我哭了很久。。。
我男友说我。。。我不听
他安慰我，我不听。。。
所以，我让他伤心
我让所有人讨厌我。。。
我很令人讨厌。。。

要求多多。。。
不懂得知足。。。

贪心的我。。。
我要改变。。。

我很幼子

难过伤心，
我哭了。。。
哭到眼都肿肿的。。。

我很惹人讨厌。。。
我。。。

不想多说话。。。

我选择了面对？
不知道。。。

我不想再多说些什么。。。
我都是错的。。。
做什么，说什么。。。
都是错。。。

态度，想法，都是错
都是幼子。。。

我很幼子。。。
不懂得长大。。。

没用的东西。。。
我真没用

我很假

我，只会怨天怨地。。。
每次遇到不好的事时，
我都很悲观
我都只会怨天怨地怨身边的人，家人。。。

我很没用
我很假
我一点也不理智
我一点也不懂得体谅
我一点也不明白事理
我一点也不懂得什么叫做爱
我根本不接受别人给我的话

我总是有很多的理由去推翻
我总是给自己很多的借口
我总是逃避问题

我就不能勇敢点面对一切吗？
我都那么的假吗？

我。。。就不能改掉我的坏习惯吗？
我的态度不好。。。
我知道。。。

是我不要改还是我做不到？？

我真的很差劲。。。

another day going out with my boss

where am I?
I at Bangsar
but I was inside the car
can u see it?
Upside that pic, have a car shadow in the mirrow
that is the car I sit
but is not mine, that is my boss >.<

one day travel to bangsar
it is so suprise, that bangsar village was very jam
but I can saw that place got lot of boutique
beside I saw tiok chan guan xi HK artist/singer shop at there too
wow...
Hong Kong Artist love to open business at malaysia huh?

Family day

Another day that having dinner wf my parent,
as usual, me,my bf sure wil having dinner wf my parent during sat and sun
but this time , add in more two people
who are them?
they are my older bro and he gf
it is the 1st time he bring bck he gf to having dinner wf us
that day is a happy day
so I take pic during that day too
why? because is hard to hv the chance that my bro and he gf wil have dinner wf us.
pic at below is our family full pic

Korean Culture Night

Where am I?
Told U it is at Kuala Lumpur.
but where is the place?
If You know how to go to the pricess hotel
than You will know it
seriously, I dun really remember this place name as what ...
by the way, why am I doing here?

Because of korean culture festival
never heard it?
Because this is for malaysia gorverment and korean embassy people
told you, that many ''big'' people come
but dun hv agong...keke
why dun hv come?
dun ask me ^^



that day I was full whole day at the backstage.
doing what there?
of course is helping my boss =.=
so I do Not have the chance to watch the show
too bad...
but i get to catch some picture at back stage during 1st day.
let's show you by pic ^^
at below~~~~

all of these people is come from korean. told you some of them really know mandarin and english
but almost all of them duno english at all
beside I get to catch some pic of those korean people who work at backstage and live at K.L too ^^
View the below pic ~~


Of course I have to prove that I really at there,
if not where got people to believe me ^^
below that pic is taking when I work at backstage and waiting the show end during day 2



why I say day 2?
because I work at this place for 2 day
1st day is open for korean embassy and malaysia ''big'' people
2nd day is open for public
but no people know it
so almost people who come to see is korean people who live at malaysia

dun see I was work til very happy and enjoy
actually I was very tire
because 1st day i stay at there since morning til night 11pm
12 am smth only can bck =.=

the second day more cham =.=
morning work at office,
night work at korean culture festival there until 12 am =.=
back home than time is 1am smth =.=
you know wat, I was very tire during that two day

after that two day I was more tire=.=lll
because need do casting until this week wednesday
non stop and is work until night 8pm
when I start to work? told u, U wil tot I lie
I start to work since 9am/10am until 8 pm
is it ard 12hr in a day?

ya, I was very tire
eventhough now...

I'm Sad

I'm sad, Very sad
I do not know whether i need to accept the salary offer or resign

I feel tocry when saw the salary price they offer me
1.4k...after probation juz up rm100

you know, tat is very less

i wana find ppl to chat wf me.
but noboday i can
my bf bz assignment
no time to listen to me

i know i cant brother him...
and the msg he reply me sound so fan
is me so fan

i very sad...
reli vy sad...

but I have to keep cont to work.

I feel to cry now~~
SAD, Reli sad

Who can help me??

Give me comment

Give me Intro

JOB job job!!!

ARH !! Beh Tahan!!

How Come got this kind of company
worst Management,
Worst arrangement
worst ,worst!!
really stupid much

I wana Quit !! Really Wanna Quit!!
But I can't !!
I keep stay myself at this company just wan to Gain more experience

Just because do not want my parent say me keep change job
So I have to Be Patient

BUT why??
why I have to stay in a company that I dislike ?
and can't leave my position
just because affraid my parent?
affraid I leave than the company will be more worst?

I really tire , tire much to be this position
it is tire much than What I though.

What should i do? Just leave and change job?

Over Spent

OmG!! This month I was over spending >.<
I Have to Save use in the coming day T.T

Next month is the new month to start a new record of spent
with new spent PLAN
and in that month
I have to keep remind myself
DO NOT SPENT OVER
T.T, I know I was too Love to Spent Money when
MY POCKET still have money or more =.=

So is time to change my habit
( Hand Feel to spent , SHIT!!)

Oh no, I have to control myself
cannot like tat...

aikss I think I really need to open a new Bank acc
that can save my money and
in the same time, I cannot to use it too

I think it is a better way to change myself to LOVE to spent
you know, when money on my hand
it is really very attractive...
it tempt me to keep spent and spent more
I can't stop to buy stuff or food
I was Lost Control
BUT, I have to stop it
to stop this habit and attitude

yeah, should not be like that
I should not be like now too

so this month, I have to control myself
in the coming day and week,
I have to save use and almost can't spent (if I can ^^)

and next month need to remind myself and control myself
MONEY, CAN't TEMPT me to spent much anymore !!
Even Food or STuff,
I will Learn to CONTROL and REMIND myself well

it is a new learning for me
and I should act it early
I was Knew it early and I did not act it
so I was the person who keep make the same mistake
but not others to inflect me

yeah, Wish myself good luck
and I really CAN DO IT
but not just TALK or SPEAK it With Louder ONLY

外拍的照片

说过会上传那天外拍的照片的
所以现在就上传给大家看看几张
可是就几张咯。。。

请看图^^

特别喜欢这张

这张好酷，我喜欢

这可是要谢谢Jeffrey Loi & Chris Woh
可惜，我现在只拿到几张。。。
待我拿到所有了就再上传咯。。。

不过，Jeffrey 可是有上传我的照片在Youtube
那PICTURE MV 可是有比较多的照片。。。

请按以下的link 游览

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yHjB6Phg_0s&feature=autofb

or
按下面 Video 来 View

身在Cheras selatan Jusco

现在的我，人在cheras selatan jusco starbucks cafe online and blog
在这之前，我找我的dar dar吃lunch
为什么来这里？
因为我的dar在这做part time promoter。。。

在和他吃lunch 时，我无聊到又拍照。。。以下可是我的作品。。。
呵呵。。。

感觉我好白痴哦。。。

我的dar,今天好可爱，（他说，男孩都不喜欢这称呼，可是我就喜欢）

看！！他又叫别人少吃的东西了。。。

当然，这看起来很好吃的是我的。。。哈哈

我的人，可是在starbucks待了快4个小时了。。。
为什么待这么久？
因为，我在等dar放工。。。

我很好咧。。。
羡慕他有我这么好的女友吧？！

哈哈。。。我又疯了。。。

等下要去他干妈家吃晚餐。。。
今天一定又迟睡了。。。

我的黑眼圈又要对我说"hello"了。。。
aiksss