A Letter to you, Jesus, lord

God,

I am sick. I am lost.
please guide me back,
please heal my illness.

Father lord,

My heart been hurt, been broken.
Please heal my heart, father lord.

Father lord,

bring me back. guide me back to the right path in my life.

Father lord,

I am open my heart, ask for faith, ask for help, ask for heal, ask for guide.
give me the power of light, guide me out from darkness.
give me the wisdom like you, think like a wise person, act like a wise person, be a mature me that creature by you,
give me the strength & ability on helping my career, my life
give me a guide in my career, my life & love
give me a heal when i am in hurt.

Father lord,

turn me to be the person that you had create.

Thank you Father Lord for loving me so much
Thank You Father Lord for forgive me even I am still in sin
Thank You Father Lord for being my side

Father Lord,
Wake me up
Wake me up.

In Jesus Name I Pray for, Amen!

Breath

Take a break, let the heart take a rest.

Breath, smile and move on.

what had happened now, is made by myself.

is time to leave it & keep silent.

let everything end by that.

Just follow the flow.

be myself. I am who I am...

Looking back myself

After all this while, I need to step out from the box.
to re-look on myself.

What am I actually looking for.
I have to back to be myself instead of just follow what people say & think & want on me.

Be myself.

those confidence, control self well, be a mature person,
be positive, no over-thinking, to trust the person,
all is a effect of my action from others people.

My happy or unhappy should not depend on others.
is by myself.

Why am I living my life on others?
Why I have to be what people want to see on me but not who I want to be?

too reaction ,
I suffer myself, I make others suffer too.

I'm live for myself, not others.

I have to be myself & be a better me.

Step out from all those past.
Yes let it go, step out myself.

Out of the box

Guess I been stuck in the box.
I can't even walk out of the box.

My worry, My over thinking, My stress, My assumption, My judgement
all stuck me in the box.

How much I wish I could walk out of the box.

See the situation & everything in clear.

My heart broken in piece.
I can't tell how the feel I am now.
I can't tell how the sadness I have now.

I try to be better
I try to change the bad to good
I try to be strong

But the much I try the much I can't make it.

Maybe, my friends was right.
I set too much rules.
for myself & relationship
end up I drag everyone in the suffer situation.

I shall learn to let go, let it be.
just follow the flow...

I should be myself.
I too care and I hurt myself too much

I make myself too available and people treat me as nothing.
not even want to treasure or care me.

maybe this is the problem.

I lower down my value in front of everyone include him.
that's why I'm no longer valuable for people.

Could I just walk out of the box...

算了，忘了

人，可以那么的现实
撇开内疚，所有的一切就那么的现实

为何当初，我会喜欢上他？

一种感觉？一种尝试？

现在，他可以就这样的放下我
走向另一个她

多可笑
我，也只是个物品

原来，也不值得留恋或伤心
算了吧。还是爱自己，把所有的心思与一切都放在自己。

我们，以前也不怎么联络
就让一切回到原点吧。

我，只是他生命里的一个不怎么样的人
他，只是一个突然进入我生活待了一小段日子的人。

他，也喜欢了另个她，而且也把心思放在她那了
我，又何必把心留给他呢。

让一切成为过去吧。

再见了回忆。

分开了

我们分开了
我难受到，我不知道我怎么了

我时好时坏
我。。。很辛苦

我越是努力的让自己不去想，让自己好起来
我就越难过

我突然很想让自己给放弃
很想就这样结束

但，一点都不值得
他，不爱我
我， 难过也改变不了什么

水莲，你很坚强的

努力的告诉自己不要哭
努力的告诉自己我会没事的

或许就因为这样，所以我更好不起来

我，只能不去想
不让情绪控制我

什么都不去想，
好好的爱自己。

努力的找新工作吧。

失去的回不去
我留不住也改变不了

爱自己，面对现实吧。

好好的控制自己的情绪。
冷静的细考
把坏情绪和冲动给征服

做个踏实的自己
做个成熟的自己

我会好起来的
我会没事的

Insomnia

爱上了，但是知道我应该停止了。

我，伤心，

因为明知道我不是他唯一的一个

但，我依然爱上他。

我，难过，

因为明知道这出席就必定会看见

他搂着别的女人而且会吻她

只是，我没想到，

那也可以是个有男朋友的朋友

我，笑自己，

为什么那么傻。

傻在明知道这会发生但是我依然觉得生气

傻在明知道他是这样但我爱他

傻在说好了不要因为他而难过但我还是难过

我，还要多学习吧

逢场作戏的爱情，我永远都学不会

这一夜，好漫长。。。长得我好想现在就能去做工了

我睡不着，怎么办

或许，该停止了。

好好的休息。。。