A Letter to you, Jesus, lord

God,

I am sick. I am lost.
please guide me back,
please heal my illness.

Father lord,

My heart been hurt, been broken.
Please heal my heart, father lord.

Father lord,

bring me back. guide me back to the right path in my life.

Father lord,

I am open my heart, ask for faith, ask for help, ask for heal, ask for guide.
give me the power of light, guide me out from darkness.
give me the wisdom like you, think like a wise person, act like a wise person, be a mature me that creature by you,
give me the strength & ability on helping my career, my life
give me a guide in my career, my life & love
give me a heal when i am in hurt.

Father lord,

turn me to be the person that you had create.

Thank you Father Lord for loving me so much
Thank You Father Lord for forgive me even I am still in sin
Thank You Father Lord for being my side

Father Lord,
Wake me up
Wake me up.

In Jesus Name I Pray for, Amen!

Breath

Take a break, let the heart take a rest.

Breath, smile and move on.

what had happened now, is made by myself.

is time to leave it & keep silent.

let everything end by that.

Just follow the flow.

be myself. I am who I am...

Looking back myself

After all this while, I need to step out from the box.
to re-look on myself.

What am I actually looking for.
I have to back to be myself instead of just follow what people say & think & want on me.

Be myself.

those confidence, control self well, be a mature person,
be positive, no over-thinking, to trust the person,
all is a effect of my action from others people.

My happy or unhappy should not depend on others.
is by myself.

Why am I living my life on others?
Why I have to be what people want to see on me but not who I want to be?

too reaction ,
I suffer myself, I make others suffer too.

I'm live for myself, not others.

I have to be myself & be a better me.

Step out from all those past.
Yes let it go, step out myself.

Out of the box

Guess I been stuck in the box.
I can't even walk out of the box.

My worry, My over thinking, My stress, My assumption, My judgement
all stuck me in the box.

How much I wish I could walk out of the box.

See the situation & everything in clear.

My heart broken in piece.
I can't tell how the feel I am now.
I can't tell how the sadness I have now.

I try to be better
I try to change the bad to good
I try to be strong

But the much I try the much I can't make it.

Maybe, my friends was right.
I set too much rules.
for myself & relationship
end up I drag everyone in the suffer situation.

I shall learn to let go, let it be.
just follow the flow...

I should be myself.
I too care and I hurt myself too much

I make myself too available and people treat me as nothing.
not even want to treasure or care me.

maybe this is the problem.

I lower down my value in front of everyone include him.
that's why I'm no longer valuable for people.

Could I just walk out of the box...