I'll Move on

[ I'll Move on ]

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Just like talking about my Feeling


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我一定能。。。

在这夜里，一个人坐在电脑前。。。
脑袋反复的想。。。
我的心，可以放开一切吗？

我可以不去计较，不去在意。。。
以平常心。。。面对，对待，看待。。。
所发生的突发事件，决定，答案？
相信所认识，所相信，
不被一些还没查明的事实给火起EQ
做个冷静的人。
冷静的做判断。
冷静地分析
不被任何的事，物与人给打乱我的思绪和情绪。

有的时候，我的情绪不受控制。。。
我能做到不被EQ打败的成功人吗？

在想，YAMADA 是怎么做到不被情绪影响自己的想法，决定和看法呢？
我有时真的觉得自己很失败。

但是，我不认输。

我一定会做到。我一直这么的告诉自己。
我一定可以把情绪给控制的很好。
做个把EQ给打败。

不被别人的话，举动，想法和看法给影响。
我一定能，我一定可以的！！

A brand New Life + Nickname

Hey Guy, My life will move in a Brand New Life.
a Brand New me.
Hence, My nickname change to Lianne

LIANNE, My new Nickname. it is convert from my last Name Lian + ne = Lianne

of course, my life change a brand new way to live,communicate 
life style also change.

next week Monday, is my Brand New life style start.
Busy work, enjoy working life
how about Love Life?
I guess is time to keep a side.
Not to think about it,even worry also kick a side
No time for that anymore.

time for Career,My life,My friends.
Is Time for Me to Enjoy Myself.

I don't want sadness anymore,
I don't want worry in my life 
I Just want, Happy,enjoy,relax and Smile.

So I Just Live for Myself not others.

Hence, I'm Welcome my brand New life and My new Nickname.
Situation change, environment Different.
Career too.

I'm chasing My dream.
It is close and closer.

Gathering Day

My Cousin Cute,right?

yesterday, Have gathering at my grandmother house.

and meet up with my aunt and uncle

besides, of course my cousin

it is second time we have gathering at my grandmother house

my mon told me that,

grandmother wanna meet us...

yea...we really been long time no meet up with them.

Wish we will having lot gathering with my relative at grandmother there (mother side relative)

Emo Going Normal

My Emo, Now getting to control. Due to My Mind been clear and positive.
Yea Yea Yea...Anti-Negative Mind
So My Emo will always go Positive Side.


Now I accept all have happened and get ready to accept all those Might be happened
I understand, all just social, all just chit chat
I can and why not he can?
he trust me so do I?
Yea, I also choose to Trust Him.


Just Chit Chat, Just hang out with friend even just alone with girl.
did I really can treat it as Normal?
I don't know...But I believe I can do it.
except he hang out alone with girl.


Tell me, any girl can accept their BF hang out alone with girl? any?
If have teach me how you make it, treat it as No Big Deal and treat is as normal?
I'm really interest to learn it.


But except that, such as,hang out/hang over/social / chit chat at net with he guy friend /house-mate /boss 
I can just treat it normal and No Big Deal Men.


Sometimes, I'm Over , I means My Emo too over control My mind
so Keep make the same mistake that I say I wont do that again.


and now, I wanna make myself be back myself, be a normal girl
a girl with smile,a girl treat everything and face everything as normal
No Big Deal.


Yea that is ME.
How I'm Lost Myself?
Now...is time to change back everything be Normal.
Not going under control by my Emo.


I'm Not going be a easy crying girl. Cuz I'm Grown, and is mature time and Mature Life.
Not too think negative but think of Positive
Trust Myself and trust Him 
Not to Think Much as I treat Everything are No Big Deal
Hence Say Good Bye to all those Naive Life

Insomnia

This Night, I'm fall in the situation of Insomnia
I'm Don't know why


it is keep non stop...
like can feel that I'm lose something right now.


I know... everything happened it made by my own.


in he mind, I'm Just a person who keep finding something to argue even it is nothing can argue


am I just a person like that?
I feel sad, i'm just a person of non sense in he mind.


maybe I'm really just a person who are not important for him anymore.
a person cannot to treat nice, cannot to care even put in the heart.
a person who just will hurt him.
a person who cannot to treasure anymore


I keep crying deep in my heart
I keep crying in the mid night
even sleep also will suddenly awake.


I hate myself...why am I like that.
I hate myself...
why am I hurt u by this way?
why can't everything just treat it normal?
why I can't?


too care? too scare?think too much?


I know...sadness back to me again
and
I'm the one who inhibit happiness come to my side.


How can I sleep well?
I keep to blame myself like this
I keep to hurt myself...
I keep to sad just because I'm blame myself...


maybe I really have to let all the "mind" go

Is ok, just let it go... all will be alright...

I don't know how to describe my feeling now.

just...many matter been happened recently.

is it all is my fault?

I'm so sorry...that I broken all your plan

I really so naive?

am I?

I have think over and over again...

why am I can't let it go?

why am I keep want people to follow what I'm think and require.

it is human not a plant or animals.

even animals, also have the right to choose.

I should not to lock all of your mind and it is just only have my mine.

I know...I'm very terrible.

Deep in my heart...I was very sad...

Why am I will be like that...

I hate myself to be like that.

I hate myself to hurt you.

I'm So sorry...

deep in my mind,

I know...what should I do.

Just let it go.

is ok.

I know all will be alright.

everything will be fine.

it is just need some time.

Non one can forget what have happened.

I know I can't change that have happened

Only one thing I can do.

Do Not make the same mistake again.

Not need to do any explain

Not need to trying change myself

Not need to do something different

Only Myself know than is enough

Only myself understand than is enough

Trust deep inside my heart it is enough

I will always remember.

Past is Past, Do Not mention it back

Do Not keep it

I'm Face to mine future not past.

so let it go.

all will be alright.

Suddenly

I Just Realise I have to break my own.

Do Not keep turn around myself over and over again.

I wan to break my own

hence I can grown up and different

I even can further my future as higher

In My New coming Job...

I must be patient and do not care so much

Everything people ask me to do, Just Do It.

as much as they give me to do,ask me to do,it is worth

Because,I get to learn much then others.

it is worth

Euro Deli

Have I ever mention I been Euro Deli ?

Of course I'm not going alone.

been there is because one of mine friend birthday.

see the picture below,it is cake for him

This night are a wonderful night I ever forget.

why?

Because of the sausage...Dam nice...men

that night if not wrong got more then 10 person to attend.

it is a very big gathering.

see my dar was very cute in this picture up there.

lalala see the sausage dam big...

Oh God...it is very nice...

I miss the Sausage there...>.<

even the bread there also nice...

it is different then what I have eat before.

you should come to Euro Deli for a try ...

see how enjoy they was...

drink wine...yeah I have drink ever too.

I'm sure you will love this place and food also. come and try.

Sushi Time at Mid velly

The Day We Went for sushi at Midvelly...hehe...it is a very enjoy day for us.

why suddenly eat so "expensive" food?

nothing it is just because we want to have our dinner

and

he love sushi...

so...here be our dinner place...

see the picture at below

yeah...it is the place we went for our enjoy eating time ^^

The enviroment here was very nice...I Dam Love it

Why Choose to have sushi? see he face...XD just because he love to eat sushi XD

of course I'm enjoy also ^^

Just because the place environment...

Nice Right?

this is he order...look so attrative

of course I always love to eat mee after My Teeth been...T.T

see he eat until like cant stop

Hehe I very enjoy my Mee...it is really very nice...

this is our sub food...this very nice lor... oh my god...i dam love it

Yeah... it is our bill when we done our food.

but we do really very enjoy ...

we will back to have sushi at here again XD

just for enjoy...nothing special...^^

In my Mind

Maybe I'm Not D Best, Maybe I'm Not D Mature.

But I'm Keep change Myself to be best as I can.

I'm Not going let Myself LOST AGAIN.

I Promise MYself, I can Do It. the dream are going closer,Not Going to GIVE it UP.

Sorry to keep you sad Always, I'm Not going to Promise You anything Because I will Means everything by my own to Prove that I'm Different and I'm mature in everything.

Challenge is always Make People to Grown up and to be different.

Thanks GOD to give me a chance to be part of your life,

Thanks God to give you a chance to be part of my Life.

Our Life will keep going on until ever and ever until we old.