慢慢的。。。我离开了悲观。。。
乐观慢慢的走进我世界

我既然不能改变眼见的事实
那么不如接受它
乐观的面对

我选择了改变了自己

人，要活得快乐，
那么生活才有意义

我要活得有意义
我选择了放下一直放不开的执著
看开了。。。
没什么好介意的
没什么好争执的

属于我的，会留在我身边
我相信

改变自己方能改变环境的发生。。。
改变自己方能影响他人。。。

我的路。。。是享受，快乐，乐观和顺其自然
丢了怀疑，丢了悲观。。。
我也向情绪说bye bye。。。

原来我给自己重新的开始。。。

the feeling right now

I'm Listening jack chang song...
it is really very sweet and
it make me to recall back my memory much...

he voice, he song...
it is really very nice...

the feel now, tonight...
I'm wish I was with him...

the feeling was very comfortable...

I can understand why lot of the people love he song...

没人明白

此刻的心情。。。
没人懂。。。

很想告诉人，
很想把那感觉给写出来

但是，我不能

我学习把所有的感觉都收起来

慢慢的。。。　
想法和感觉也会被麻木给收藏的很好

不让任何人看透。。。

在工作上，所有的人都很假
每个人都戴着面具

我想。。。人生的道路上，
有很多我还要学
而且要做得更好。。。

都过去了

一切都过去了。。。
有些事，是应该放下

我明白，我体会到

今天。。。是我最珍惜的

天空的心情

最近老是下雨
就如我的心情

但是我的心情多了很复杂的感觉

我很生气，同时我告诉自己
要冷静。。。

我会好好的记得
所发生的事
包括那令我最一生难忘的事

我将来就看那人会有多好

我郑重的说
现在这个地步已经是limit
不要挑战我的忍耐限度。

Raining Day

今天是雨天
下了一场倾盆大雨

却看不见彩虹

我听到了心的声音。。。

这一刻，我看见了鼓励我的话语

我改变不了环境，但我可以改变自己；我改变不了事实，但我可以改变态度；我改变不了过去，但我可以改变现在；我不能控制他人，但我可以掌握自己；我不能预知明天，但我可以把握今天；我不可以样样顺利，但我可以事事尽心；我不能延生命的长度，但我可以决定生命的宽度。


此刻。。。我努力的坚强起来
告诉自己。。。我要擦干眼泪


我不可以崩溃
我一定要站起来


好好的把所有的心情收拾起来
我明白，我过去都做错了


我不能改变过去，我也不能改变别人此刻对我的看法
更没有必要


我会好好的活
改变自己是要自己变得更好


我不要再为任何人而活了

我想了很久
或许。。。

那个决定是时候该想清楚了

心很痛。

我会好好的想清楚

方向

最近发生的。。。让我慢慢看到很多
我不知道该怎么说
但是，我很明白，我找到了方向
找到了更好的方法。

我真的慢慢的放下
慢慢的平静自己去面对和接受

说真的，我的心，有不一样的心情
我不要从前那样的我
我要坚强要硬更要保护自己
同时，多为自己着想。
不要再什么都想，这样他会开心，那样他会怎样

我应该想，我这样会开心吗
我那样，真的是我要的吗？

原来，我一直都活在他的世界
我都没为自己想过

我也了解到，
是应该换个方法，态度和想法了

我要好好的重整自己
调整所有的一切

似乎，该走的路，慢慢的明显
那方向，我看到了

这次，该做的慢慢的接近了

I Like this sentence

I Like this Sentence...

it totally talking about my feeling

明明很想哭，却还在笑。 

明明很在乎，却装作无所谓。 

明明很想留下，却坚定的说要离开。 

明明很痛苦，却偏偏说自己很幸福。 

明明忘不掉，却说已经忘了。 

明明放不下，却说他是他，我是我。

明明舍不得，却说我已经受够了。

明明说的是违心的假话，却说那是自己的真心话。 

明明眼泪都快溢出眼眶，却高昂着头。 

明明已经无法挽回，却依旧执着。 

明明知道自己很受伤，却说你不必觉得欠我的。 

明明这样伪装着很累，却还得依旧..

为的只是隐藏起自己的脆弱，即使很难过，也会装的无所谓，

只是不愿别人看见自己的伤口，不想让自己周围的人担心，

不想让别人同情自己，只想在心底独自承受，

虽然心疼的难以呼吸，却笑着告诉所有人“我没事的！”

然后静下来时，自己便笑话自己，

何必把自己伪装的那么坚强.!

只想静静的

我。。。要的不是朋友，
也不是家人的安慰
更不需要什么安慰

我只需要勇气和冷静。。。

勇气让我相信一切
相信我们会在回一起
相信一切会更好

冷静让我看清我们的问题
让我看见我的问题
告诉我该怎么做，怎么面对

我不敢再想坏的结果
我更害怕。。。

我努力的在寻找我的勇气
我努力的让自己冷静

告诉自己。。。一切会好的

不要难过，不要伤心。
不要哭。。。
一定要坚强

平静的面对
以平常心看待

这刻。。。我冷静了。。。
那下一刻呢？

我不敢再乱想。。。
我怕会缭乱了自己。。。
我知道下一刻我也会那么的冷静

因为。。。一切会更好的。。。

分开的第一天

我一整夜都睡不好
我一直都发噩梦

完全睡不到
一直的起身

我想他应该睡得很好。。。
没有我的日子
他会过得很好

我怎么那么的失败
我真的彻底的崩溃

我真的很不好

我努力的告诉自己
要坚强
会没事的

我真的会没事吗？

Peace

to accept 

to learn to let it go

Everything will be alright.

unbelievable

I cant believe, my colleagues are this kind of people
they are very childish,should say is naive...

how can they grow so big but their mind set are so damn naive just like a 3 year old kids.
gosh...i really disappointed on this all people

wont hope they are good people anymore.
from now on, i will work harder for my job task only.

keep to protect myself more
talk less do more

not going to join this people more
not either talk more with them or closer with them

to avoid anything bad to happened
just be good to myself and my some lit friends in this company

I told myself, I will try my best to learn up all in between this year.
Do not try to fierce me up

I just Try to avoid the involvement of non-topic
and leave as soon as possible I can.


really thank you those who had help me up before
but now i knew they help me just because they need my help.


really reality。。。
I Will know how to do and I will remember how you all treat me.

I Wonder, How Old Are Them

为什么有这样的人？
我真的很难想象。。。

他们到底多少岁呀？

真的搞不明呀
都那么大了
却好像小孩一样。。。

小声说大声笑。。。
真的很无聊咯

然后，在我背后说我幼稚，小孩子。。。

天呀。。。这到底是什么世界
难道。。。社会大学的人就是那么的幼稚？？？

真的很无聊呀。。。

互相的伤害，真的是这样吗？
这真的是我们想要的吗？

没有人明白，也没有人看见
我们都偷偷的哭

我。。。选择了我的选择
我希望一切都是好的

我真的不想要走到让大家都伤心的路
我只想要我们都开心

我珍惜这次的选择
也希望他也是这么想

请让我看到未来，让我们幸福的

Countdown ING

One month...Still Have ONE MONTH !!
The Day are Soon to Reach...

30day from now onward ...
Countdown ING...

hehe

way in love

Maybe this really is the only way we have to go through...

choose-->Understanding -->Grow up --->love --->marry --->stick until old

But i'm still in the understanding...
I'm Know I'm going to the next step---> grow up...

Recall:
" a Guy who think about future only worth for me to consider"

something meaning of it...
It is true.
My Mum told me

Recall Back :
" important not he rich, is how he treat you,is it nicely,sayang you, You Happy to be with him"

Did you meet someone like this??
For me...Maybe...

Because I'm Still in the Understanding Way...

it is still far away

I'll Move on

[ I'll Move on ]

it is a nice song.
Just like talking about my Feeling


share with you all

我一定能。。。

在这夜里，一个人坐在电脑前。。。
脑袋反复的想。。。
我的心，可以放开一切吗？

我可以不去计较，不去在意。。。
以平常心。。。面对，对待，看待。。。
所发生的突发事件，决定，答案？
相信所认识，所相信，
不被一些还没查明的事实给火起EQ
做个冷静的人。
冷静的做判断。
冷静地分析
不被任何的事，物与人给打乱我的思绪和情绪。

有的时候，我的情绪不受控制。。。
我能做到不被EQ打败的成功人吗？

在想，YAMADA 是怎么做到不被情绪影响自己的想法，决定和看法呢？
我有时真的觉得自己很失败。

但是，我不认输。

我一定会做到。我一直这么的告诉自己。
我一定可以把情绪给控制的很好。
做个把EQ给打败。

不被别人的话，举动，想法和看法给影响。
我一定能，我一定可以的！！

A brand New Life + Nickname

Hey Guy, My life will move in a Brand New Life.
a Brand New me.
Hence, My nickname change to Lianne

LIANNE, My new Nickname. it is convert from my last Name Lian + ne = Lianne

of course, my life change a brand new way to live,communicate 
life style also change.

next week Monday, is my Brand New life style start.
Busy work, enjoy working life
how about Love Life?
I guess is time to keep a side.
Not to think about it,even worry also kick a side
No time for that anymore.

time for Career,My life,My friends.
Is Time for Me to Enjoy Myself.

I don't want sadness anymore,
I don't want worry in my life 
I Just want, Happy,enjoy,relax and Smile.

So I Just Live for Myself not others.

Hence, I'm Welcome my brand New life and My new Nickname.
Situation change, environment Different.
Career too.

I'm chasing My dream.
It is close and closer.

Gathering Day

My Cousin Cute,right?

yesterday, Have gathering at my grandmother house.

and meet up with my aunt and uncle

besides, of course my cousin

it is second time we have gathering at my grandmother house

my mon told me that,

grandmother wanna meet us...

yea...we really been long time no meet up with them.

Wish we will having lot gathering with my relative at grandmother there (mother side relative)

Emo Going Normal

My Emo, Now getting to control. Due to My Mind been clear and positive.
Yea Yea Yea...Anti-Negative Mind
So My Emo will always go Positive Side.


Now I accept all have happened and get ready to accept all those Might be happened
I understand, all just social, all just chit chat
I can and why not he can?
he trust me so do I?
Yea, I also choose to Trust Him.


Just Chit Chat, Just hang out with friend even just alone with girl.
did I really can treat it as Normal?
I don't know...But I believe I can do it.
except he hang out alone with girl.


Tell me, any girl can accept their BF hang out alone with girl? any?
If have teach me how you make it, treat it as No Big Deal and treat is as normal?
I'm really interest to learn it.


But except that, such as,hang out/hang over/social / chit chat at net with he guy friend /house-mate /boss 
I can just treat it normal and No Big Deal Men.


Sometimes, I'm Over , I means My Emo too over control My mind
so Keep make the same mistake that I say I wont do that again.


and now, I wanna make myself be back myself, be a normal girl
a girl with smile,a girl treat everything and face everything as normal
No Big Deal.


Yea that is ME.
How I'm Lost Myself?
Now...is time to change back everything be Normal.
Not going under control by my Emo.


I'm Not going be a easy crying girl. Cuz I'm Grown, and is mature time and Mature Life.
Not too think negative but think of Positive
Trust Myself and trust Him 
Not to Think Much as I treat Everything are No Big Deal
Hence Say Good Bye to all those Naive Life

Insomnia

This Night, I'm fall in the situation of Insomnia
I'm Don't know why


it is keep non stop...
like can feel that I'm lose something right now.


I know... everything happened it made by my own.


in he mind, I'm Just a person who keep finding something to argue even it is nothing can argue


am I just a person like that?
I feel sad, i'm just a person of non sense in he mind.


maybe I'm really just a person who are not important for him anymore.
a person cannot to treat nice, cannot to care even put in the heart.
a person who just will hurt him.
a person who cannot to treasure anymore


I keep crying deep in my heart
I keep crying in the mid night
even sleep also will suddenly awake.


I hate myself...why am I like that.
I hate myself...
why am I hurt u by this way?
why can't everything just treat it normal?
why I can't?


too care? too scare?think too much?


I know...sadness back to me again
and
I'm the one who inhibit happiness come to my side.


How can I sleep well?
I keep to blame myself like this
I keep to hurt myself...
I keep to sad just because I'm blame myself...


maybe I really have to let all the "mind" go

Is ok, just let it go... all will be alright...

I don't know how to describe my feeling now.

just...many matter been happened recently.

is it all is my fault?

I'm so sorry...that I broken all your plan

I really so naive?

am I?

I have think over and over again...

why am I can't let it go?

why am I keep want people to follow what I'm think and require.

it is human not a plant or animals.

even animals, also have the right to choose.

I should not to lock all of your mind and it is just only have my mine.

I know...I'm very terrible.

Deep in my heart...I was very sad...

Why am I will be like that...

I hate myself to be like that.

I hate myself to hurt you.

I'm So sorry...

deep in my mind,

I know...what should I do.

Just let it go.

is ok.

I know all will be alright.

everything will be fine.

it is just need some time.

Non one can forget what have happened.

I know I can't change that have happened

Only one thing I can do.

Do Not make the same mistake again.

Not need to do any explain

Not need to trying change myself

Not need to do something different

Only Myself know than is enough

Only myself understand than is enough

Trust deep inside my heart it is enough

I will always remember.

Past is Past, Do Not mention it back

Do Not keep it

I'm Face to mine future not past.

so let it go.

all will be alright.

Suddenly

I Just Realise I have to break my own.

Do Not keep turn around myself over and over again.

I wan to break my own

hence I can grown up and different

I even can further my future as higher

In My New coming Job...

I must be patient and do not care so much

Everything people ask me to do, Just Do It.

as much as they give me to do,ask me to do,it is worth

Because,I get to learn much then others.

it is worth

Euro Deli

Have I ever mention I been Euro Deli ?

Of course I'm not going alone.

been there is because one of mine friend birthday.

see the picture below,it is cake for him

This night are a wonderful night I ever forget.

why?

Because of the sausage...Dam nice...men

that night if not wrong got more then 10 person to attend.

it is a very big gathering.

see my dar was very cute in this picture up there.

lalala see the sausage dam big...

Oh God...it is very nice...

I miss the Sausage there...>.<

even the bread there also nice...

it is different then what I have eat before.

you should come to Euro Deli for a try ...

see how enjoy they was...

drink wine...yeah I have drink ever too.

I'm sure you will love this place and food also. come and try.

Sushi Time at Mid velly

The Day We Went for sushi at Midvelly...hehe...it is a very enjoy day for us.

why suddenly eat so "expensive" food?

nothing it is just because we want to have our dinner

and

he love sushi...

so...here be our dinner place...

see the picture at below

yeah...it is the place we went for our enjoy eating time ^^

The enviroment here was very nice...I Dam Love it

Why Choose to have sushi? see he face...XD just because he love to eat sushi XD

of course I'm enjoy also ^^

Just because the place environment...

Nice Right?

this is he order...look so attrative

of course I always love to eat mee after My Teeth been...T.T

see he eat until like cant stop

Hehe I very enjoy my Mee...it is really very nice...

this is our sub food...this very nice lor... oh my god...i dam love it

Yeah... it is our bill when we done our food.

but we do really very enjoy ...

we will back to have sushi at here again XD

just for enjoy...nothing special...^^

In my Mind

Maybe I'm Not D Best, Maybe I'm Not D Mature.

But I'm Keep change Myself to be best as I can.

I'm Not going let Myself LOST AGAIN.

I Promise MYself, I can Do It. the dream are going closer,Not Going to GIVE it UP.

Sorry to keep you sad Always, I'm Not going to Promise You anything Because I will Means everything by my own to Prove that I'm Different and I'm mature in everything.

Challenge is always Make People to Grown up and to be different.

Thanks GOD to give me a chance to be part of your life,

Thanks God to give you a chance to be part of my Life.

Our Life will keep going on until ever and ever until we old.

I Miss it

Oh My god... Today We did not went to church...

because of something have to settle...

God Pls Forgive us...

We will go to church again.

Sound Silly of Us

This Day, We went for breakfast as usual.

But the different was I'm having my breakfast with my brother,he GF ,my Bf and my lit sis.

this was the 1st time we(brother sister) having breakfast together

after that, going to bought something home in the pasar ^^...

hey how come we sound like uncle and aunty already??

haha but it is sweet.

we been together 1 year and 5month now...

but we still so sweet as we are just been together as couple.

after that, I decide bring my lovely darling and litter sister go to KLCC to walk walk...

so PC Fair will be our 1st station...

second station that we went for is kepong jusco.

after finish bought everything that we need

then we went to join my parent for dinner ^^

a whole one day shopping...

though that will be end for shopping day.

but who know, we went for 3rd place after having our dinner.

that was tesco kepong ^^

omg...it is really a very tire day...

but was fun ^^...

can you imagine?

a day without any stress...just have fun...

it is really very relax...

Go To Church during Sunday Morning

Sunday, Early morning was wake up.

where are we going?

Of course going to church. ^^

the 1st step I step in,

I Feel Warm,relax and Nice

So... I'm Sure I feel Happy to stay Here.

I'm Love here ^^

Methodist Church was Nice.

Free Beer Night at TDH, Tom dick n harry

2 Jun 2010,

The Night for crazy?
Not men, is went for Free Beer.
Sound a Nice treat , huh?

but the Time for free was from 6pm til 8pm only.
it is because for their anniversary.

anyway, I get to drink it for free at least ^^.

after the free beer, we went for Dinner near by the shop.

sweet sweet beer, the 1st time I try.
Love it much.

I Love the food here.
Big, Nice and the beer was Nice.

let's see the picture

When have time must come and try.
It is another enjoy and relaxing Night.
I Love my life with My Dar and our friends.

Working life are not such boring actually.

The Night for Movie

26 May 2010 ( if not wrong)

Where are we at?
What are we doing here?

Yea, We having our movie after the week when we back from Pulau Perhentian.
we went for a movie at Tropicana.

What movie are we watching?
it is shark.

It was a nice movie and meaningful
Must Have a Watch.

It is another nice and relaxing night .

The Day We Went for Trip

21 May 2010



The Place we Went for Trip, Where are the Place? Pulau Perhentian.
I Love this Place.
The Beach, The Sea and The Sand

Now Let the Picture to describe the Story.

12 of us in the picture was the Leading role in this trip.
10 of us sit in two different car to drive to the Terengaru.
another 2 was sit bus to there.

after that, we sit boat to Pulau Perhentian For our trip.

See how excited was us while we sit in the boat.

Of course, me and my dar must take some picture during sitting boat.

Yea, we reach there, and we change cloth to prepare go to beach for start our swimming and game.

run so fast go were?

Now I know, Is run for game of Volley ball .

The second day, we are prepare to swimming in the sea too.

How Siok when swimming in the sea. I Love it much because my dar carry me. ^^

See How relax of us when sit in the beach

of course, other than swimming we are having some game before going down the beach.
and we play together with the foreign. how enjoy huh?

oh gosh, both of us was tire before went for dinner.

before going for dinner, we have some photo here XD. it is second night we have here.

It is nice food here. We love the food at here much.

Before going back, we are having our lunch
before having lunch, I have take some photo for this island to keep as memory.
Let's see the picture.

And Now, Is time to Back

Good Bye , We Will Be Back

Going back by boat again.
Let's Take some memory picture.

While we reach the departure when we park our car, I took some picture at the souvenirs place
and I bought some back in the same time XD

How we going back to Kuala Lumpur?
Of course by car again.
during the way back took some Picture again.

How Narcissism of me XD

the driver was very concentrate

in front are the another car which going back together with us.

Finally reach ...
was tire...
but we enjoy the trip.